By, Wendiann Alfieri
Looking in the past
You’ve always had my back
In the times that I have needed you
And the times where I didn’t.
You were there
And you knew
Who you were dealing with
When you were with me
all that aside, I never knew you as personally
As you did me
So I swallow
open my eyes
You caused me
So much pain
You didn’t want me
But outloud you never complained
All the years you were faking
Telling me that
Me and you were becoming
Us in the making
Because I didn’t know how you
Could switch up your act
One day nice and upbeat
Or sad
Or mad
And you made it all seem like you felt those things for me
That you were on my side
And that you sympathized
But it wasn’t from your own heart
Your were just strategically smart
You were breaking me down
For your own gain
Whatever game you were playing with me
I was just a puppet on a string
You saying you wanted me
Was a way for you
To break my feelings in two
And leave with a smile
Using me was worth your while
But as you walked away
The shade is slowly going
Away
I’m becoming my own
Leaving you to the unknown
Because I am true I am loyal
I am trustworthy and noble
And no matter what strategies you use on me
I learned to set
Myself free