Alive
Updated: Feb 20, 2021
By, Wendiann Alfieri
There are days
That you wake up late and rise
Rushing to brush your teeth
Spit out some blood in the sink
Splash water and wipe your dark eyes
And hoping no one cares
You hide your wear and tear
That bruise for today is just not there
You are small
Underneath a coat
Your friend let you borrow
From three or four years ago
A disguise
At least no one will see
Those scars he left upon your knees
You get your coffee
Extra strong
Just so the day can move along
As you sit behind your desk at work
Smiling with ease
Because until you get home
You won’t have people
You have to please
We have to lie to keep ourselves in check
pretend everything
Is fine
Hoping the more we say it that it will be...
We lie
We lie
Deep and cutthroat sometimes
We lie
We lie
Even white lies cast dark shadows
But the lies we mostly tell
Is to appease our sense of self
On the walk back home
You feel nasueous so
You go into the drug store use the bathroom and think
Something that makes your heart sink
You don’t realize life is about fighting to the bone
futures soon are passed in stone
We have to lie to keep ourselves in check
pretend everything
Is fine
Hoping the more we say it that it will be...but we
We lie
We lie
We lie
Deep and cutthroat sometimes
We lie
We lie
We lie
Even white lies cast dark shadows
But the lies we mostly tell
Is to appease our sense of self
So you get home later than normal
You know you’ve got to get out
Before he knows and figures out
You’re relieved
There’s no car in front
No stares or care from anyone
But inside
You’ve made up your mind
And you walk into the house and grab some clothes
A charger for your soon to be dead phone
You get the cash you’ve been saving
For the new apartment you’ve been wanting
But the door flies open
And your heart just won’t stop pounding
As you run down the stairs
You almost make it out the back door
You can’t lie anymore
But you wake up
To sirens and lights
you wake up
this wasn’t the end of Your lives
so you put your hand on your head where some blood is dried and dead
you are Alive
and they tell you you’ll be ok
as your in the ambulance being driven away
And the first thought you have
“This kid will have to do without a dad”